Nobody knows

It wasn't an awesome day for me. It was a bad day. A really bad day. I was on the verge of crying when she didn't seem to bother about me anymore. She doesn't seem to be there. Not anymore. She's got someone else. I miss her. The old her. Its painful to act like I'm all happy, but in fact, I feel alone..so alone.

Then,
He had to rub it in. He just had to.
I finished CATS, and I was so exhausted.
My plans was to sleep, and forget everything that happened today..

but no.

He just had to tell me how much he hates my mom.
My parents have been separated for nearly 3 years. It hurts, it really does.
I want to tell him how I feel. But I can't. The words never seem to come out right.
I'm afraid. I'm afraid I'll hurt him.

I can look all happy in school,
But deep down inside,
No one knows how much it hurts.

He said, "I want to make it quick. I want to fly off to another country, I'm never coming back. Your mom made me hate her." Does anyone know how it feels? I can't imagine the day when he wouldn't be by my side any longer. It hurts, it truly does.

I can't imagine him, my father I would call, can leave us just like this.

I still love him, ofcourse I still do.

I'm so not looking forward for tomorrow,
I think I'm giving school a miss.